Follow by Email

Tuesday, September 23, 2014

Notebook



everything and everyone crawl down to earth with a certain destiny
some things are destined to be somewhere 
this Diary had a destiny.
i purchased it more than a dozen of solstice ago
in 2007
just one day before the friendships day
i had a dream i will hand it over to its destined owner
and four months ago i did deliver it.
and i got a notification that the diary has reached at its destined place
so a heartfelt thanks to the delivering person, i owe you as i promised.
and i don't know currently if this diary is rotting in some
 trashcan or some place worse than that  
but i'm glad i tried. it took 7 years but finally i had that notification.
the notification can be a bogus but at least it sounds really pleasant :)












one day a few years back, i entered in ma bathroom and found this on the wall 
and i was amazed with this artistic creation of little creatures we know them as spiders.
it was really surprising. they knitted such thing and that inspired me 
to create a character for ma novel,
even the spiders of ma bathroom knows some/this alphabet/s




Read More

Thursday, September 18, 2014

A sparrow’s dream




Once upon a time there was a small plump grey bird named sparrow, living on a tree of a small town. She wants to settle her nest on the tallest tree near mountains. And with very hard work of collecting dry grass and other necessary things, successfully she knitted her nest in a few weeks on the tallest tree of her choice and scavenged the city and she has a lot other dreams too, with a confident feeling she swore to have them all achieved.

She laid eggs there in her new nest, it was like a little awkward place for her at first but she wanted to be there. In no time a flock became her friend. She liked going to chase the sunset till the rays of drowning piece of fire starts spreading darker shadows everywhere,

She wasn't aware of pro and cons of having a new place. One day a venomous viper came by crawling to her nest and buried his teeth in sparrow’s eggs and rest of nest fall down on the ground cause of vipers’ weight. And when in the evening when the bird came back and didn't find her nest on the it’s place, she fetched help and found it on the ground and the snake roaming around

She cried and depression possessed her soul and kept her numb for a full week she fetched help from the flock of eagles, the destroyer of the venomous creatures. They helped her out of pity. They found the snake crawling on the branch of trees and she witnessed herself when eagles drained the life out him in the sky amid the shining ray of sun. and after killing the snake they kept his body on the branch of same tree where sparrow lives so she can see the viper dead and feel peace. it finally fetched the sparrow a very tiny whim of peace. Well the fire of vengeance always burn to end of eternity.

She thought its not enough killing just one crawling beast with sharp teeth. She made a deal with a flock of eagle, little sparrow and her friends will find the crawlers and eagle will rip apart their venomous packets with their souls from vipers body. The deal was fine, eagles agreed to it. And in few days vipers extinct from that place of tallest trees.
In no time sparrows friends became her family, a couple of solstice passed she had her little sparrows playing in her nest. There growing wings were peaceful scene for the sparrow.

In the end this story make me feel that we all are same little sparrow. We all share the same dream “A Sparrow’s Dream”. We all face problems fight them and get them solved.

The thing that inspires me most in this story is “that tiny sparrow never gave up”, and the best thing this story taught me is “be honest with your dreams and your responsibility” like the sparrow did she had a dream and she worked on it until it was a reality.  You are the one who have to endeavor to turn it into reality. By being honest I mean if you are student study hard.  

"only your honesty with your dreams and responsibilities will place you closer to your goals"

I learned all these in last few weeks, how important it is to be honest to your dreams to achieve your destiny, I knew it from always but never took it seriously. Its sounds really strange to me, I’m a dreamer even then why I never had this sparrow’s will of getting things done. 

i started asking a question every night before i go to sleep, what i did today that will place me a little closer to my aim??, and the answer has a magical effect. if the answer will be no then i'll try to go better next day, if answer upholds certain magnitude in positive direction then its a good news :) I started feeling certain changes in me from then and it is a positive change. 

I’m not a sparrow but trust me I have dreams “sparrow’s dreams”.




I’m a sparrow, I will fly high
From the deep blue sea to the blue of heights
Challenges might grow vicious and dry
I will fly through same jungle, over same tides
I’ll stop a bit, and take a sigh
I’m free bird, don’t compare me with kites 
(kites = p't'ng = patang)


                                              - Roshan"
Read More

Saturday, September 6, 2014

A cup of tea



And it was the first night in Kanpur, 13th April 2007 that was the time when it all started. After dinner me and my roommate Ranu and his elder brother Ritesh went for a little walk towards Geeta nager crossing for having tea.

Well it was nothing special about going on walk and have some tea with friends with whom it was my first 24 hours. The thing I found special and peculiar was their interest about that nasty cup of hot beverage. I was told that sooner or later it’ll become your best friend.
I couldn’t fathom Ritesh bhai’s reason behind his enthusiasm about just a ridiculous cup of tea at then.

The days had flown away, I earned some headache because I was failing to understand Pankaj agrwal’s (chemistry teacher) concepts of “mole concept”.

Anish srivastava’s (physics teacher) vector theories and Anurag vishnoi’s (maths teacher) quadratic equations are not making my life any easier. And their I treated my tiredness and tension with concentrated mixture of milk, water and some leaves ‘came from the different land of livings’ followed by ilaa’y’chee. And then I came to understand why some people admire taking sips of tea so much, when the hot divine wine crawl down your throat and you feel the unimaginable pleasantness one can’t deny to have some more, unlike many country men I found myself sieged in territory of its taste. And of course I felt refreshed,

Well I took tea when I was happy or sad, when I felt that I am in love or when I was in rain or when I felt like I should walk a bit. I hope you got the point.

Sooner I realized that it’s not a choice any more that I want to take it or not. it became a need with time. Once I sipped 28 cups of tea during watching the Chinese movie “arhaan”, when I was in Kanpur.
Me and my best friends sorted out A lot of misunderstandings over a simple cup of tea. I mean it had that kind of power, that merely asking for going out for tea was able to put a smile on our faces. Some of my best friends are my best friends because we spent a lot of time discussing matters over tea. When I think about tea It reminds we what kind of person I was in past because it’s nothing that I have never shared with my tea and mirror. It reminds me of my best friends who cares for me, “Anand”.

It reminds me the time when after having tea in 2 o’ clock morning on rawatpur railway station we played cricket in front of vanshika girls hostel (R.S. puram..near kakadeo) with plastic balls. For me Having tea is shuffling trough memories.
It reminds me the old me. And for me its not any less than Vodka. J
So go on have a cup of tea or Coffey with a smile to enjoy another second of your life. May god bless your town with “ache chai wale”, unlike the place where I’m living :’( .


that pic was taken years ago near to the geetanager crossing where we use to go for tea


P.S.: i was checking if i too can write in English, so i wrote this post :) no hard feeling please about how rubbish my writing style is:)

Read More

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

"राहीं "


ना जाने क्या तकलीफ  है उसको "रोशन"
वो अक्सर आइनों से बात करता है 
लिखता है चाहे जो भी हो 
कुछ और रास्तें चल कर देखूंगा 
वो अक्सर ज़िंदा रहने की बात करता है 
न जाने क्या बदला भा गयी सादगी उसको 
वो अक्सर रास्तों में  मिलता है 
और चलते रहने की बात करता है 

कुछ पग डंडियां हकीक़त की
तरफ ले जाती है मुझको 
कुछ गुमराह कर जाती हैमुझको 
फिर भी मैअक्सर
जिंदगी से इकरार करता हूँ
मै राही हूँ रास्तों से प्यार करता हूँ "

मिलता हूँ जब भी उससे 
मुस्कुराते रहने की दुआ देता है 
देखता हूँ उसे तो खुद मुस्कुरा देता है 
न जाने क्या मंजिल है उसकी 
न जाने कहा जाना चाहता है 
देखकर ऐसा लगता है 
वो अक्सर आइनों में हमदर्द तलाश करता है 

पूछता हूँ बुरेवक़्त में क्या करते हो "राही" 
वो  बस मुस्कुरा कर
गुजर जाने की बात करता है 

अक्सर इंसान थक जाता है 
और जिंदगी हार जाती है 
सफलता  कुछ कदम दूर
खड़ी देखती रह जाती है 
लेकिन इस बार ठहर कर नहीें 
चल कर देखूंगा, हार को ज़िंदा रह कर देखूंगा 

अंजाम की फिक्र कब थी मुझे 
मै "राही" हूँ कुछ और रास्तों से गुजर कर देखूंगा 



ये राही इश्क़ तो नहीं  करता  लेकिन सपनो पे किसका वश है :). 


एक बार ख़ूबसूरती ने सपने में आकर कहा 
की ठहर जाओ मेरी बाँहों में
उसने मुस्कुरा कर लिखा  की 
हमसफ़र बनना है तो मिल जाओ कहीं राहों में 
                                                               

                              -रोशन कुमार "राहीं "








Read More